let · the · bass · from · the · speakers

Sophia and i = best friends again
She's not a douche

I feel like im getting to know my past again
like freshmen year status
and it scares the hell out of me

imaliveipromise

i finally got my mind in a group and i need to write... erm... type it out so then it can make sense 
confusing
but i thought this would be a nice place to post it
*names have been changed*
okay
so i came to the conclusion:

The thing with me is i need constant attention from someone 24/7 . i wish i wasnt like this. i think thats why ive been letting Joe come over a lot... not because i like him... but because he pays attention to me. And see Joe really isnt that nice of a person at all. He's too tuff and he's kind of a perv, but i still let him come over because i NEED the attention. Larry is th cute, innocent boy... but he doesnt give me attention. I really want thim to be the one that saves me, but you see i cant always get what i want. I really like Larry but he's reallyreallyreally shy, i mean we flirt in school a lot, but he doesnt hang out with me outside of class. But, i dont want to keep turning to Joe for attention. But dont get me wrong, Joe doesnt want a relationship, and i dont want one with him... its not like im leading him on or anything. We're just having fun i guess. He's too "hardcore" for a relationship. UGH but what people dont understand is that i NEED his attention. It's beyond want... its a need. And when i dont get the attention i crave, i get really weird and depressed. And the only one i want a relationship with is ... is Larry...and thats weird for me to say because usually relationships scare the heck out of me. uhm i think Joe is coming over tonight. i wish it wasnt like this... i wish i wasnt such an attention craving little girl. But i simply cant help it.

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